Savage Love

Savage Love: A Little Outside Help


Dear Dan —

I've been mostly happily married for 15 years. I'm a straight man. I love my wife. We used to have a great sex life. But after many years, children, and just day-to-day reality, our sex life is now pretty unsatisfying. While my wife was barely GGG at the beginning, now she will not go down on me ever. We do have sex 4 to 10 times a month, but it is always plain vanilla. I went on Craigslist to look at the "casual encounters" ads, and after months of just looking, I replied to some. My only actual response admitted to being a man pretending to be a woman. Long story short, I let him blow me. I didn't touch him. I just watched some straight porn while he blew me. I have done this a few times with different guys. I am not turned on by men at all, but I do enjoy the enthusiastic BJs when combined with straight porn.

Questions: (1) Does this make me gay, bi, or neither? (2) Do I have to stop? I have been careful to keep it pretty safe, and since I am not really attracted to or interested in these guys, it just serves to satisfy a "disproportionate sex drive" situation without the risk of any emotional cheating. I'm pretty sure if I found a woman interested in an affair or a FWB situation, it would be a much riskier emotional tightrope. One more question, I guess. (3) What should I do?

— Blow Job Secrets

1. I wouldn't call you gay or bi, BJS, seeing as you're concentrating on straight porn during those enthusiastic man-on-man blowjobs. What you describe sounds like a mild case of "situational homosexuality," i.e., something that otherwise straight men are sometimes forced to do "for gratification or release in a single-sex environment," as the sex-ed website SexInfoOnline puts it. You're not locked in prison or stuck on a pirate ship or sweltering away in a shithole like Saudi Arabia, places characterized by the "the prolonged absence of partners of the opposite sex." You're just a blowjob-deprived married man with access to the internet who figured out that accepting blowjobs from gay or bi men is cheaper than paying female sex workers to blow you and less entangling than entering into an affair with a woman.

2. Yes, BJS, I'm afraid you do have to stop. I would be inclined to give you a pass if you were not having sex with your wife at all—or having sex with her once or twice a year, or if your wife announced she was asexual—but you and the wife are having quite a lot of sex. If you were to contract gonorrhea or syphilis from one of your male sex partners, BJS, you would almost certainly pass the infection on to your wife before you became symptomatic and got treated. 3. You should get your wife's permission—maybe she'd be down with outsourcing oral duties she finds tiresome, maybe she'd like to have an adventure or two of her own—or you should knock it the fuck off.

Dear Dan —

I am a straight woman who has been with my fiancé off and on for 12 years. Why is our relationship sexless? He is possibly asexual, my attraction to him is limited, he roughhouses and I am afraid he will hurt me, and he is crap in bed when we do have sex. But I love him, I treasure our history, and I would love for our families to merge. I essentially can't live without him. I had the opportunity recently to get sexual attention outside the relationship, and now I can see living a life with my partner while having a separate sex life that involves other people. This is something he would never agree to. I am currently trying to examine my morals to see if I can be okay with this arrangement. It is the only thing I can think of that will allow me to stay with him.

— Wondering If Faithfulness Endures

Would it be a good idea to marry a possibly asexual man you don't find attractive, a guy who's lousy in bed on those rare occasions when you do have sex, because you could see yourself being happy with him... so long as you can wrap your morals around lying to him for the next three or four decades?

Don't do it.

The amount of stress that will pile up over the years—all that working to convince him that you're not only not having sex with him, WIFE, but that you're not having sex with anyone else either—will soon outweigh the stress of one knock-down, drag-out, open-and-honest conversation about the role of sex in your marriage. But instead of saying, "I'll marry you, but only if I can fuck other people," go with this instead: "Sex has never really been important to us as a couple. It doesn't define our connection, honey, and it never has." Then tell him that you won't consider any sex that happens outside the marriage—so long as it is safe and completely discreet—grounds for divorce. Hopefully he'll agree, WIFE. If not, don't marry him.


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