I am a gay man in my late 50s and have never been in a relationship. I am so lonely, and the painful emptiness I feel is becoming absolutely unbearable. In my early 20s, I hooked up off and on, but it never developed into anything. I have always told myself that's okay; I'm not people person or a relationship kind of guy. I have a few lesbian friends but no male friends. I have social anxiety and can't go to bars or clubs. When hookup apps were introduced, I used them infrequently. Now I go totally unnoticed or am quickly ghosted once I reveal my age. Most nonwork days, my only interactions are with people in the service industry. I am well-groomed, employed, a homeowner, and always nice to people. I go to a therapist and take antidepressants. I cry often and would really like it all to end. Any advice?
Lonely Aging Gay
"In the very short term, LAG needs to tell his therapist about the suicidal ideation," said Michael Hobbes. "In the longer term, well, that's going to take a bit more to unpack."
Hobbes is a reporter for HuffPost and recently wrote a mini-book-length piece titled "Together Alone: The Epidemic of Gay Loneliness." During his research, Hobbes found that, despite growing legal and social acceptance, a worrying percentage of gay men still struggle with depression, anxiety, and suicidal ideation.
Loneliness, Hobbes explained to me, is an evolutionary adaptation, a mechanism that prompts us humans—members of a highly social species—to seek contact and connection with others, the kind of connections that improve our odds of survival.
"But there's a difference between being alone and being lonely," said Hobbes. "Being alone is an objective, measurable phenomenon. Being lonely, on the other hand, is subjective: You feel alone, even when you're with other people. This is why advice like 'Join a club!' or 'Chat with your waitress!' doesn't help lonely people."
The most effective way to address loneliness, according to Hobbes's research, is to confront it directly.
"LAG may just need to get more out of the relationships he already has," said Hobbes. "He has a job, friends, a therapist, a life. This doesn't mean that his perceptions are unfounded—our society is terrible to its elders in general and its LGBTQ elders in particular—but there may be opportunities in his life for intimacy that he's not tapping into. Acquaintances LAG hasn't checked in on for a while. Random cool cousins LAG never got to know. Volunteering gigs you fell out of. It's easier to reanimate old friendships than to start from scratch."
Another recommendation: Seek out other lonely guys—and there are lots of them out there.
And if your therapist doesn't know of any good support groups—or if you don't feel comfortable telling your therapist how miserable you are, or if you've told your therapist everything and they haven't been able to help—find a new therapist.
I am a 55-year-old gay male. I am hugely overweight and have not had much experience with men. I go on a variety of websites trying to make contact with people. However, if anyone says anything remotely complimentary about me, I panic and run. I don't like being like this. I just believe in being honest. And if I'm honest, I'm ugly. The face, even behind a big-ass beard, is just not acceptable. I have tried therapy, and it does nothing. How do I get past being ugly and go out and get laid?
Unappealing Giant Loser Yearns
You say you're ugly, UGLY, but there are some people who disagree with you—the people who compliment you on your appearance, for instance.
"I'm not sure I even believe in the word 'ugly' anymore," said Hobbes. "No matter what you look like, some percentage of the population will be attracted to you. Maybe it's 95 percent or maybe it's 5 percent, but they are out there. When you find them, do two things: First, believe them. Second, shut up about it."
In other words: Just because you wouldn't want to sleep with you, UGLY, that doesn't mean no one wants to sleep with you.