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Savage Love: Shake That Moody

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I'm a 30-year-old, Asian American, hetero-flexible cis woman. I'm also newly diagnosed with bipolar II. I'm on medication — the doctor is trying to figure that out — but no talk therapy for right now. My question for you is regarding the relationship between bipolar and kink. One of the common symptoms of the manic stage of bipolar is "risky sex." I equate risk with "likely to blow up one's personal or professional life" and have always answered "no" to that question when asked by doctors. I've had the occasional hookup, but otherwise I've consistently had sex in the context of closed, monogamous relationships, i.e., the opposite of risky sex. However, it recently occurred to me that I'm fairly kinky (BDSM, role-play). Nothing I'd consider a varsity-level kink, but what do I know? I have out-there fantasies that are varsity level, but I've never done them. Am I just bipolar and kinky? Are the two related somehow? Should I be concerned that I'll go into a manic state and start enacting (or trying to enact) some of the varsity-level fantasies in my head?

— Kinky And Bipolar

P.S. I asked my doctor this via email, but I haven't heard back yet and have no idea how sex-positive he is. So I thought I'd get a second opinion.

P.P.S. I'm currently manic enough that it's hard for me to edit, so there may be weird/confusing shit in my letter. Sorry for that!

"I'd like to congratulate KAB for seeking help and for the work she's doing to get stable," said Ellen Forney, author of Rock Steady: Brilliant Advice from My Bipolar Life, an award-winning self-help guide to maintaining stability, and the best-selling graphic memoir Marbles: Mania, Depression, Michelangelo & Me. "I'd also like to welcome KAB to BIPOLAR! Toot! Toot! Confetti!"

The specific manic-stage symptom you're concerned about — engaging in super risky sex — is called "hypersexuality," and it's what happens when the extremely poor judgment match meets the supercharged libido gas.

"But it's only 'hypersexuality' when it gets in the way of a reasonably well-functioning life," said Forney. "Picture masturbating all day instead of going to work, or having relationship-wrecking affairs."

If your diagnosis is correct and you have bipolar II and not bipolar I, KAB, you may be less susceptible to out-of-control hypersexuality.

"Strictly speaking, a bipolar II diagnosis means she cycles between 'hypomania' (mild mania) and depression," said Forney, "so her highs aren't going to be as acute as they would be for someone diagnosed with bipolar I, where hypersexuality can really get dangerous."

Forney warns that misdiagnoses are not uncommon where bipolar is concerned, so you might want to get your diagnosis confirmed. But your long-standing kinks aren't necessarily related to your condition.

"Like for anyone else, there's nothing necessarily wrong with feeling uninhibited enough to pursue varsity-level kinks, so long as they're not putting her or anyone else in danger," said Forney. "Ultimately, KAB's goal is to be stable enough to trust her judgment. For now, she might weigh the risks while she's feeling stable, so she can make some levelheaded decisions about what might or might not be too risky."

Forney also recommends having a discussion with your partners and friends about what your limits are.

"That way, her partners and friends can help her recognize if she's crossing her own lines," said Forney. "And realizing that she's suddenly tempted to cross her own lines could be a signal to her that she's getting hypomanic and needs to take steps to stabilize — steps I explore in Rock Steady!"

P.S. If your doctor won't answer your sex questions — or only gives you unhelpful, sex-negative answers — find yourself a new doctor.

P.P.S. There are letters I have to read three times before I can figure out what the fuck is going on. Your letter was as lucid as it was charming.

P.P.P.S. If you haven't already, KAB, please pick up Forney's books. You'll benefit from her insights, her advice, and her coping strategies. And thanks to Forney's art and sense of humor, both books are a delight to read.

Therapists across the country are recommending Rock Steady to their patients with mood disorders, and Forney won a Media Partner Award from the National Alliance for Mental Illness for her work on Rock Steady and Marbles.

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